cause I just wanna be successful
"i want it all ; that's why i strive for it"
Remember the post of the soundtrack of my life? I'm sure Drake would be on the playlist; no doubt. Making more than one appearance. His latest mixtape release is ill, but then again ; I don't remember when I haven't liked his music.
"diss me & you'll never hear a reply for it"
I posted a youtube video on chicks & drama earlier on this week ; finally youtube uploaded it 2 days later. I hear a lot of people cursing about youtube not uploading their video & I never really understood til now. It took 2 days to upload my insight video ; how rude!
I started this post at 8:19am ; it is now 11:24 pm. I'm home from work irritated ; tired & kinda lonely. "my ex sends late night texts cause she don't know how to let go. go go" - Drake . I don't get the texts; I get the phone calls. "I'm just calling to check up on you". I mean, should I be doing bad? Is there something tragic going on in my neihborhood that I am unaware of? Should I feel bad cause you want to work on things with another girl? Should I have responded to the news in a different manner? Should I fight for something, that's brought me more hurt than happiness? Why do you feel the need to check up on me? This isn't the first time we've departed. This isn't the first nor will it be the last that you're going to hear. "Okay, well I'll let you do your thing." Females don't neccesarily like their current partner to communicate with their ex's especially not ones that you admit that you're still in love with. So of course I took my que to let you live. Friends or not, I'm not trying to impose on anyones relationship ; because I wouldn't want it to happen to moi. =)
So to answer the late night phone calls ; & the question at hand ; yes . I'm fine; just a little tired from work. & unless you're offering a foot massage. I'd rather you not ask me. =)
"you're my everything; you're all i ever wanted ; we can do it big ; bigger than you ever done it"
i know right renee? People are looking at my font like this is one arrogant bitch; but in all reality I'm not. I just love me ; more than the rest of yall. It bites; but it's the truth. Now my lil self loving ass is going to google the term "spanish fly" apparently it has something to do with sex. This dude at work keeps telling me he's going to "spanish fly" me ; AS IF! Oh goodness it seems to be somee "date rape" type of drug. "it is supposed to heighten a woman's sexual appetite so much so that it is possible for a man to take advantage of her" -- [the jamaica star news] . SoOoo, how interesting. I knew it was something "out of order" when I asked my brother & he looked away and said "I'm trying to watch my movie. My sister in law laughed til she turned red then told me it has to do with sex & I should look it up on the internet. *fans it off* Some dudes are ultra lame.
"I've got to be Unstoppable"
but to keep everyone happy; I'd need a clone.
& my soundtrack hasn't even begun to form. I'm so far gone.
=)
"i want it all ; that's why i strive for it"
Remember the post of the soundtrack of my life? I'm sure Drake would be on the playlist; no doubt. Making more than one appearance. His latest mixtape release is ill, but then again ; I don't remember when I haven't liked his music.
"diss me & you'll never hear a reply for it"
I posted a youtube video on chicks & drama earlier on this week ; finally youtube uploaded it 2 days later. I hear a lot of people cursing about youtube not uploading their video & I never really understood til now. It took 2 days to upload my insight video ; how rude!
I started this post at 8:19am ; it is now 11:24 pm. I'm home from work irritated ; tired & kinda lonely. "my ex sends late night texts cause she don't know how to let go. go go" - Drake . I don't get the texts; I get the phone calls. "I'm just calling to check up on you". I mean, should I be doing bad? Is there something tragic going on in my neihborhood that I am unaware of? Should I feel bad cause you want to work on things with another girl? Should I have responded to the news in a different manner? Should I fight for something, that's brought me more hurt than happiness? Why do you feel the need to check up on me? This isn't the first time we've departed. This isn't the first nor will it be the last that you're going to hear. "Okay, well I'll let you do your thing." Females don't neccesarily like their current partner to communicate with their ex's especially not ones that you admit that you're still in love with. So of course I took my que to let you live. Friends or not, I'm not trying to impose on anyones relationship ; because I wouldn't want it to happen to moi. =)
So to answer the late night phone calls ; & the question at hand ; yes . I'm fine; just a little tired from work. & unless you're offering a foot massage. I'd rather you not ask me. =)
"you're my everything; you're all i ever wanted ; we can do it big ; bigger than you ever done it"
i know right renee? People are looking at my font like this is one arrogant bitch; but in all reality I'm not. I just love me ; more than the rest of yall. It bites; but it's the truth. Now my lil self loving ass is going to google the term "spanish fly" apparently it has something to do with sex. This dude at work keeps telling me he's going to "spanish fly" me ; AS IF! Oh goodness it seems to be somee "date rape" type of drug. "it is supposed to heighten a woman's sexual appetite so much so that it is possible for a man to take advantage of her" -- [the jamaica star news] . SoOoo, how interesting. I knew it was something "out of order" when I asked my brother & he looked away and said "I'm trying to watch my movie. My sister in law laughed til she turned red then told me it has to do with sex & I should look it up on the internet. *fans it off* Some dudes are ultra lame.
"I've got to be Unstoppable"
but to keep everyone happy; I'd need a clone.
& my soundtrack hasn't even begun to form. I'm so far gone.
=)
Labels: calm, drake, happiness, heartbreak, maintain, so far gone, work
Feb 26, 2009
2:16 AM
i want new thigh high boots
& if you haven't heard.
It kills me - Melanie Fiona . chck it out
so its 20 after 2 in the morning ;
& Essence is singing on her mic along
with her cousin ; they sound very nice together
so i had a pretty good day today . nothing special
i went and got my cartilage pierced again ; twice
today. other than that it was a pretty cool day.
Oh my goodness, let me share the joke of the day with you.
So my manager @ the hair studio, runs a mobile salon as well
& today she got a request for someone to come out to one of the
Humber Hospitals to do a dying womans hair. She tried to get
everybody in the book to do it; but no one would man up to the
task but me. Soo I'm here getting ready to head out to the West
and My manager calls me and says "They're church people so don't
wear any tight jeans or revealing tops". I'm here like damn
now you trying to tell a chick what to wear? I wasn't going to
wear anything revealing anyways but still ; they're crossing the
line with that request bud. So I'm like cool whatever. "Don't wear
any make up either". I look at the phone side ways likeSo I'm
like you know what fine, a dying woman. Whatever. So my brother an I
are about to walk out the door when the phone rings again. I run
upstairs; and he's like C. said forget it. They don't want any good
looking girls. I'm here looking at my Brother like he's an idiot
because I'm like dude if you ain't want to bring me no where just say
that! He's like no foreal. Call her back she'll tell you.
So I'm here dialed my work number and was like what's up? She's like
the girl called back and was like "Don't send no hoochie mama looking
girl either". C, was like well no, she's a young girl and she happens
to be in her early 20s and she's very well put together. She doesn't
wear revealing clothing or none of that. The girl was like "wait! she
looks good?" C's, like yes. The girl was like oh no forget it. Cause
the ladys husband hasn't been laid in a year or so since his wife has
been sick, and even though she's sick she will get upset and insecure
if someones taking her husbands attention, even if thats not what she's
trying to do.
So I'm here laughing my ass off at the story, cause at this point C.
is hella pissed and looking mad crazy cause she spent so much time
trying to get someone who would even do the task, and now it's being
cancelled cause her partner is too pretty to work...
Soooo the joke of the day is, I'm too pretty to work. I didn't have
to go into work today cause I'm pretty! If thats not some bullshit,
I don't know what is.
& if you haven't heard.
It kills me - Melanie Fiona . chck it out
so its 20 after 2 in the morning ;
& Essence is singing on her mic along
with her cousin ; they sound very nice together
so i had a pretty good day today . nothing special
i went and got my cartilage pierced again ; twice
today. other than that it was a pretty cool day.
Oh my goodness, let me share the joke of the day with you.
So my manager @ the hair studio, runs a mobile salon as well
& today she got a request for someone to come out to one of the
Humber Hospitals to do a dying womans hair. She tried to get
everybody in the book to do it; but no one would man up to the
task but me. Soo I'm here getting ready to head out to the West
and My manager calls me and says "They're church people so don't
wear any tight jeans or revealing tops". I'm here like damn
now you trying to tell a chick what to wear? I wasn't going to
wear anything revealing anyways but still ; they're crossing the
line with that request bud. So I'm like cool whatever. "Don't wear
any make up either". I look at the phone side ways like
like you know what fine, a dying woman. Whatever. So my brother an I
are about to walk out the door when the phone rings again. I run
upstairs; and he's like C. said forget it. They don't want any good
looking girls. I'm here looking at my Brother like he's an idiot
because I'm like dude if you ain't want to bring me no where just say
that! He's like no foreal. Call her back she'll tell you.
So I'm here dialed my work number and was like what's up? She's like
the girl called back and was like "Don't send no hoochie mama looking
girl either". C, was like well no, she's a young girl and she happens
to be in her early 20s and she's very well put together. She doesn't
wear revealing clothing or none of that. The girl was like "wait! she
looks good?" C's, like yes. The girl was like oh no forget it. Cause
the ladys husband hasn't been laid in a year or so since his wife has
been sick, and even though she's sick she will get upset and insecure
if someones taking her husbands attention, even if thats not what she's
trying to do.
So I'm here laughing my ass off at the story, cause at this point C.
is hella pissed and looking mad crazy cause she spent so much time
trying to get someone who would even do the task, and now it's being
cancelled cause her partner is too pretty to work...
Soooo the joke of the day is, I'm too pretty to work. I didn't have
to go into work today cause I'm pretty! If thats not some bullshit,
I don't know what is.
On another note....
I spoke to someone that's pretty close to me today, about some shit that's been on my mind. "Self sabotage". Sometimes we do it so often, it just seems like we can't get over obstacles. I personally think I do this to myself when I pay attention to what people are saying around me. I really don't feed into the bullshit too often, but I'm human it happens. I also think I've been doing it to myself in regards to a specific someone. I feel like that person has the potential to be my everything... But what am I scared of? I'm not scared of being hurt. Been there done that, so many times. It's nothing to me. I think it's mainly I don't know how I'd feel about having something that works out for the best & it leaves both parties happy. So for that reason I sabotage myself into working myself up for something good, but me acknowledging it now only means change. & on that note I'm wrapping this post up.
Labels: butterflies, essence, love, pretty, work