A very attractive & intriguing female told me "Nice guys finish last"
Foxxy said "she knows you, & she knows how to get to you"
I know she's right; yet I keep entertaining her games.
Sorry Warner Bros. I don't want to play this game anymore.
I don't have the time nor the patience to deal with this shit...
The End.
Procrastination; putting off procrastination for another day ; because later never seems to come. I've known that all along, but it seems so much more clearer now. As we sat up in our hotel room, with thoughts and ideas of things we want to take care of on this cool Sunday afternoon. A short list of to-do list formed, all involved our tasks for the day. As we re-enter the building I say "So are you ready to hit the gym?" She replies with "URGH! Not now, later!" That was approximately 1pm. It is now minutes to 10 and still we've yet to hit the gym!
As s month comes to an end and a new one starts I've set some new goals. Goals, that I'm not going to put off any longer. If later never seems to come, why not deal with these tasks now?!
- Call dentist office for permission to use them as a guarantor.
- Submit a new form for birth certificate
- Stick to my new diet plan. Chicken & Fish it is... No more Pizza Pizza, Pizza Hut, KFC, Popeyes, Wendys, greesy chinese food ect. No pork & red meat, and smaller portions
- Atleast 45 minutes in the gym everyday!
- Have new tattoo completed
One by one I'll complete my goals. Maybe even two by two, and by completing that tiny list above, I'll start to complete the master list. Which reminds me of number 6. Create 101 things I'd like to do before my twenty second birthday. Wish me luck!
Labels: annoyed, goals, irritated
May 29, 2009
10:59 PM
We'll back track about a week or so. Everything was good. Money was rolling in non stop. Myself and my roommates were going through our normal routines. We hit up the clubs a couple of times, celebrated my munchskins' Ally's Birthday a few times. My one bad experience was the physical altercation with my ex. Since then we've been good, good enough to be speaking and spending time together. Saturday May 23rd, rolls around and we go out and being out in the presence of other people seems a little awkward. Having to deal with other girls that thought we had something going on... Eeeek! That's all I have to say. I spoke to my mutual friend of the person who seems to be catching feelings about how I act towards her. Trying to find someone that can make it more clear to her that we had nada, and she should stop approaching me when she sees me because it's uncomfortable and annoying. We'll discuss that another time though.
Next we leave the club ; wanting to go home to settle in. With plans that ties up the end of the month and happy because we're moving into our new condo. BAM! Tragedy hits one of the two people who are close to my heart. Everything bad that happens to this girl effects me!
This weel has been a complete 360 from the previous weeks. Why does it feel like everytime something is going great something bad happens. Is it a sign, to not get too full of ourselves? We all feel defeated, at some point and time, but there is no giving up. You can only live your life for yourself. So right now I'm coping. Coping with the good and the bad ; and looking past the negative with a positive mind set. So wish me luck, not that I'll need it. Carrying the wold on my shoulders, but after the storm the sun shines!
Labels: stressed
10:44 PM
uh oh ; ginuwine back with timbo & missy?
not feeling the track ; but it's the thought
that counts =)
Labels: ginuwine, missy elliott, timbaland
May 18, 2009
7:25 PM
defeat.
never in my life ; have I ever experienced being defeated. Not until, last night at my lowest moment. As I sat there enduring the hurt & the pain ; images of my life flashed before my eyes. How is it possible to be punished for not wanting to argue. I sat there in silence & apparently that was an open invitation for the individual to exaggerate and make the issue escalate into a physical altercation. After spending so much time holding onto love, and all the possibilities and to endure something so traumatic. The red marks left on my neck is enough to finally get the strength to let go.
& Although I endured the most fucked up night last night. I'm happy, and motivated. Finally it's all over & there's no turning back now.
May 15, 2009
3:38 AM
hot & cold. . .
i chase my paper... but since i strive
to live successful it seems like she
strives to capture my heart ; when i
wanted to be captured she let me go.
so is it wrong ; that I keep playing
the part of hot & cold? hmmm
i miss relationships ; but maybe it's best
I keep doing me
Labels: love
3:35 AM
i can't stop!
thinking about her....
this sucks cause im trying to sleep!
Labels: love
May 6, 2009
10:17 AM
Since I'm single and not officially taken ; [although I have a couple of wives ;) lol]
Daily love: May 6th 2009 [Pisces]
Daily Flirt
You're all about preparing for the summer right now. It's a perfect time for throwing out emotional trash and making room for cool new ideas and experiences.
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Lately when I've been reading my horoscopes; I've been noticing that although I may not read them ; first thing in the morning I still seem to follow the path of the horoscope. I'm not talking about the love part ; but the main part. I've been up since 7:30 this morning; cleaning and doing laundry at my friends house. Getting ready to go back to Brampton to start moving some of my things to my new apartment. You know when you wake up and make a plan and say. THIS IS WHAT I'M GOING TO DO TODAY! Well yeah; I did that! & Now I'm working, and scheduling what's next. I've already completed 3/4 of my to - do list for the day. & it's only 10:25! This feels Great!
I'm thinking I need a new make over though. Appearance wise! I think I'm going to schedule a session @ Visage or MAC ; get a new everyday look. Maybe I feel so different about my appearance because the sun has been shining & my hair is still not blond. Maybe this is a good new change. I'm going to hit up the beauty supply store friday or so. Can't wait to do my summer shopping. Heels shopping!!! Omg & putting together some more outfits for my clothing line. I think I got Aly; to jump on board! ell no! correction! I know I got her to jump on board. I love my ba-ba.
Labels: m
9:13 AM
Sorry for all the neglect.
The money is too good; I've just been working
& Working ; and paying bills ! & moving!??
Yes I'm still moving. Funny huh ; I've been too busy working
to move my items to my new apartment.....
If that makes any sense what so ever! SMH @ paying bills
for a place you don't even live.... yet! But I guess You gotta do
what you gotta do!