Let's be honest. . .
I like honesty ; I like being honest. In all reality, I'm sitting here looking at my screen. Looking down at my fingers periodically wondering why nothing is coming through from my brain to my fingertips allowing me to post an entry. Well, not much to wonder about. I already know why my brain is on lock down. I'm sitting here listening to Alright by Sterling Simms. This is probably the 50th time it's played consecutively. I'm not even kidding... I'm here listening to the song; waiting for that. "It's Alright, it's Cool" attitude to kick in but it doesn't seem to be happening tonight. It didn't happen last night or this morning before I went to work either. It's 2 in the morning and I'm not at all tired because I'm upset. . . I'm angry? Disappointed? Hurt? I don't even know what I am! That's a problem, I'm always able to identify my emotions clearly. Yet at this particular moment they are very difficult to decipher. What I do know at this particular moment is that Dyondra didn't call me back, & I'ma kick her ass =). I also know that Thoro has been M.I.A for a couple of days; something tells me not to worry, cause that's Thoro's behaviour; but I can't help but to be concerned. She's like a little sister. Well I guess I shouldn't be all that worried, her ass put out a million & one youtube videos of her speaking to the viewers... haha I'm going to use this entry as a reminder that I need to speak to Thoro about what she shares with the world, @ that age.... Anywho...
I know it's silly but I feel like my world has changed. Well maybe not my world, but my plans... I'm not letting whatever is upsetting me to make decisions for me, but usually if I am sulking about something I'm able to think about my Birthday and be all excited again... But nothing seems to be working for me right now. "weed & alcohol seems to satisfy us all" -Drake. Looks like I know how this night will end. I'm getting tired of listening to this song by Sterling.
who can I run to?