So I'm here at work; Sort of bored. Ya it's not busy right now. & I kind of have a lot on my mind. Hmm, let's start with ex's. Urgh, I'm kind of sick and tired being bombarded by them one after another. Laying all these guilt trips. Why is it so horrible that I want to be where I want to be, & that is not neccessarily with an ex right now? Why do I still end up feeling horrible about the situation because I know that there could possibly still be something there. Yet I don't want to take the time to explore that.

Next thing on my mind... Screen names, facebook status', and blogs. Something about them are getting to me. Especially when looking at one particular persons thoughts. I can't get mad at anyone for the way that they think but I can control how I get involved with them. I don't want to hear that I'm a bad person, because I assune that someone has something going on with someone else just because of the way they portray themselves in their screen names, blogs or facebooks status'. I'm sorry for jumping to conclusions, but as an individual I think that I put things that I can relate to in my messenger name or status... I even blog about them . I'm just assuming the person does that as well... Sue me.

I'm out here working my ass off because there are things I want to do, and I want to be comfortable, I want to have a home of my own & a luxorious lifestyle. So I continue to work my ass off. & After I leave work tonight I'm going to work somemore ; & then get up in the morning and do it all over again. Psh, atleast I got a 2 day vacation being at Thoro's house this week. Aww man, I love that girl. We like talk about everything... & She helped me make certain plans in regards to what I'm going to do to maximize the outcome and minimize the amount of time that I actually spend working. That way I can actually get to do some of my clothing & accessorie line.

What else is on my mind... Trying, I hate trying and feeling like I'm getting nothing in return. My only reaction to it is to back off and to leave things as they are. Hopefully something good will come out of this post. If not, such is life!
Peace & chicken Grease, I have to get to doing a clients hair. I can't wait til I'm done her hair. I don't want to be at the hair studio any longer; but money talks I suppose. I need to stay focused to be able to do all the things I want to do. Like drive my own car, and push key into my own house. I don't see many 20 year olds buckling down abb