After two in the morning ; & I'm exhausted yet I won't bring myself to sleep.
Sitting up my bed ; & looking around in the dark just staring into spaces as I listen
to my music. I guess I can start by telling you how crazy my day has been.
It all started around 9 am; When I was woken by a phone call telling me I didn't have
to go into work today. Thank God; cause I don't think I was going to get up out of my
bed. I honestly don't think I was going to go in. . . Not til later on in the early afternoon
at least. . . I spent my morning in bed ; chillen & talking breifly on msn messenger before
getting up and getting ready to go to the hair studio, where I did my neice's hair for her
Birthday "jam". Pshhh only 13, and having basement parties [insert disappointed msn
smilie here] Anyway, so I did her hair & came back home. Had a shower & barely got
completely dressed before Thoro arrived at my house. Yay! My partner in crime. I
needed someone around to keep me sane while chaperoning a kids party.

One thing I will say though, is I don't ever remember being that disrespectful to my elders.
Infact, I can't think of a time I was told to stay in a certain place of a house or someones home
and I kissed my teeth and cut my eye at the person. As a matter of a fact; I almost kicked
a girl down the stairs. It took a lot out of me to not put my hands on that child. She was so
rude, & irrational over "stay in the basement, people can't be walking up and down the stairs
& in and out of the house". I was going to beat the little girl down ; until she apologized. haha.
Back when I used to go to house parties; I don't remember it being as boring as the one I
chaperoned tonight with Thoro. I guess that's what happens when a thirteen year old has
a "jam". Next time they should stick to having a gathering with Birthday gifts. . . haha
Nothing to worry about though; there will not be another jam in this house; not after someones
parent came busting through the front door; trying to beat their child ; for disobeying her and
coming to the party. If that wasn't enough; when she was fighting away from her mothers
grip; her step brother who happens to be only 2 years older than her tried to beat her up.
I was so appauled. That little boy is lucky I wasn't standing right where it all happened on
the porch. I would have felt no way to knock that kid out. Some how some where he learned
it was okay to hit a female. I promise you lord; if you put me near another situation like that
I will have no choice but to beat that boys ass.

I felt so bad for the girl ; My brother ran outside trying to calm the mother down ; & spoke
to the little boy; as I sat and spoke to the girl. I know how it feels to be beaten. Embarrased
& disrespected by the people who are near you. The people who you should be able to run to
are the ones that tear ou down & beat you up the most. Ahh so sad; I told her she could
come see me at work whenever she wanted to talk since it's located in her area. I want
that kid to put his hands on his sister like that infront of me again. It will definately
be the last time he does it. The girl felt so frantic ; with no where to run too. I remember
the feeling oh too well. *thumbs down*

I don't know why, but this song is stuck on replay. I didn't do it on purpose ; but I appreciate
my limewire for taking the initiative to repeat the song on its own. Robin Thicke is singing to me.
"I wanna love you girl" I really liked this song; well I still do. That's probably why I haven't took
it off of repeat just yet. I've listened to it more than 26 times by now; I'm sure. I'm so glad
I found you... Essence.