so maybe it's a self conscious thing. maybe the headaches only sticks around when I'm worried about something. maybe she causes them by all the confusion. so many maybe's & not enough "i know for sure!". everything seemed fine when i woke up from my dream yesterday morning. once again i felt at peace; dreaming of my dream girl =). when i finally got up out of the bed ; my head instantly started hurting.... I can't blame being confused on that particular time. As I walked from the bathroom back to bed, my head started pounding even harder. The pain started so suddenly & so strong; I felt so distraught. As the left side of my head throbbed, I silently wished I had remained laying down. I just laid there in bed, wondering what was going on with me. Finally got up enough strength to get up and grab my laptop. // [you'd think i ran for the bottle of advil, no sir!] // which is so odd for me, but i suppose I didn't run for the meds because I've been popping carelessly each and every time I have a headache, migraine, or cramps. I toughed out the pain for several more hours before my niece & I took our behinds to the great outdoors to shovel all that damn snow before my bro came home from work. Being outside in the fresh air; there was a slight relief, but as soon as I came inside the left side of my head started throbbing again. Whats going on with me??! This is nuts! I decided, maybe it's still bothering me because I haven't ate yet & it was 4 in the afternoon. So I grabbed one of the sausages, my sister in law cooked. For a quick 10 minutes while I bragged about eating a sausage to my ex on the phone my headache seemed to ease up a bit. Or at least I think it did, but now that I think about it. I complained to her that my head was still killing me. Nothing seemed to help, and not being able to speak to her* all day kinda made it worst I guess. //[ well i lied; i could have called ; but i didn't ]// & until around 12am, this morning I hadn't been able to speak to her*. I'm not complaining though ; I wish we'd speak more throughout the days but I'm fine with it; it's odd. . . Cause usually I'm not. Maybe this is something that's changed since my "maturity" stage. & no it's not because I just don't feel the same about her, that I did the rest; cause she's amazing. & with that being said I think I'll go converse with her until it's night night time. Even though it's a quarter to 3 in the morning. why the hell am I still up? mm well I did this new blog theme. Hope you all enjoy it as much as I do. I think it's cute. I racked my brain trying to come up with something. less is more