I've noticed that humans are very selfish. I mean it's no surprise, I've known that for a very long time, but I feel like if I don't go out of my way to disrupt anyones life and happiness. Why do people feel the need to do it to me. So at 10:56pm, I get a call from an unknown number. Wishful thinking, that it was going to be my manager. I was speaking with him earlier and our call got disconnected. ---- Oh hold up. I think I'm going to be sick to my stomach!
[5 minutes later] Ok sorry for the false alarm. Anyways, let me continue while I sit here sipping on my lemon tea. Anyway, so the call comes in and I pick up, and I hear a voice, asking to speak to me. I do confirm that it is me on the other end of the phone and I proceed to ask who the person is. 50% sure, that I recognized the voice. She identifies herself. *duh duh Duhhh* My lovely ex, [lol]. URGH, so I proceed to ask what it is that she wanted and why was she calling me, and she bursted out "So what you don't want me to call you anymore?" -- Wait hold up, hold up, hold up. I am NOT the one, not tonight. Not ever. Lose it. Wait do you remember what happened the last time we spoke? I remember clearly, you got irritated because I asked you for something that was rightfully mine, and you hung up the phone on me. Excuse me for cutting my loses and washing my hands of you, because I do not like to be around or involve myself with selfish beings. Why, why is it an issue that I don't want to talk to you anymore. Is it because weeks ago we spoke about a possibility about getting back together. You ever, forget why you cannot be with someone, and then you chill with them and it's all good. Then you chill with them another time, and you're like OH WAIT. I remember why it's totally impossible for me to be happy with this individual. Well thats what I kinda encountered. I knew why I left her. I knew what my issues with her were. As we sat on the phone for hours at a time at night, she was all about talking about how much she's changed and grown as an individual. Whew, PRAISE GOD! -- oh hold up, don't get too excited. Then I chilled with her, and I was like OH HELL NAH! Bitch please, I am totally not interested anymore. All those little things that I used to hate still exist. Talking about something and being about something is two totally different things. So, because I slowed down on the phone calls.
Took time away from calling and going out with the individual, it became an issue. Which is normal and is fine because I didn't communicate my issue. I just kind of pulled myself away from it. So her concern was, "I thought you wanted to be with me". I was like well, you know I have to think about certain things. There are issues that I still have with you, and being around you made that more apparent. "Oh so you were just talking shit, then got me back to thinking that we could be together, and now my feelings are here and you're running". Ok, if thats the case then i apologize, but there are two people that have to go through this. You're not alone. I have my issues as well. ---- oh whatever, anyways it comes down to, I called the individual one day last week asking them for the money they owed me, because I needed it. This girl, got all high and mighty and rude, for no reason, said what she said and hung up the phone on me.
Okay so the old me would have had an issue with that and called her right back and cussed her til thy kingdom come. However, I didn't. I just made a decision for myself. I don't need selfish people around me. I'll cut my loses over the money she owes me and just call it quits.--- Which brings up to tonight. Calling me all up in my ear, Well why.... why cant u answer me, why can't you tell me. Just tell me if you're still considering being with me. Well Bitch if you'd shut the fuck up I'd be able to answer your question. & No, I don't think you're right for me. CLICK. hung up in my ear again. *smh @ this broad*
Ok so I started this blog at exactly that point. When she hung up in my ear. I turn on the kettle, to make some tea cause I was starting to feel sick to my stomach. [turns out, that each time i've stressed lately, i start to feel sick in the pit of my stomach, then i umm... yeah the rest is yucky]
So I'm sitting around and the phone rings again. "Sorry, I just didn't like that you said that, but I'm sorry". UH HUH!... so what else can i do for you why are you still calling. "Well, can we atleast be friends"... What I want to know is, if I don't want to be around someone cause they're selfish, what makes you think I'ma make an exception for a friendship. Like honestly. learn to leave me alone. I've left you alone, and I didn't raise my voice and cuss you out. I could have, and done so very nicely might I add, but I treated you with more respect. Why is it so hard for people to treat others with the same respect that they're given.
So moral of the story, don't answer blocked calls, cause it's probably your ex. & don't be selfish around me cause you will be eliminated. & in the midst of be finishing this blog Foxxxy's crazy ass sent me this photo. OMG i nearly pissed my pants . What kinda hot messssss lmaoooooo oh jeez. Let me wipe my tears.
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