okay so this post is being named ain't that funny for the main fact that i find certain things about people kind of humorous. I can be the nicest individual you've met & I can also be a total bitch about things. Today was a day that I took to myself to think and ponder things a little more, to come to my final plan of action on how to finally take control of my life and stop getting so caught up caring about how other people live theirs... So I loved her, a lot actually, the different ways that she hurt me. Then tried to come back into my life... Ain't that funny. Like JLo said. "Baby that you want me when you had me ; Love is crazy" Isn't it though? You can spend large amounts of time trying to explain yourself and try to compensate what you did to me, and how you made me feel; with what you were going through but at the end of the day. I got hurt. Not you, you're probably hurting cause you lost a good girl. Someone who infact loved you and cared about you, & even though you were doing wrong. Still stuck it out cause she wanted to see you do better. But enough is enough. Although I was the one thinking about it, I was the one who brought up the subject once upon a time, because the love I had for her ran so deep. Why should someone in their right mind, forget all the things you put me through. I can love you with every ounce of my body and soul, but honey, I love me more. so baby girl, NEXT.
Ain't that funny, that I feel like I have to act a certain way to get attention from a certain individual? Ain't that funny, that if I don't initiate communication with an individual, I don't hear from 'em. *slight smirk* What I've learned is, if I say I'm going to do something. Go ahead and do it, other peoples feelings do matter, but at the end of all of that. They worry about their feelings and their issues more than mine. Which is fine cause if you don't look out for you, who will? Exactly my point so I'm just going to continue taking it one day at a time. Loving me, and looking out for my own best interest. & stop worrying about all these other issues that I have no control over. That's just life. Shit happens. Who knows maybe it'll be another situation where I can bump JLo and giggle. Singing Ain't that funny. ----- Until next post...

see ya later!